I have really been putting a lot of stock in moving closer to Hartford (a city up here in CT). We had an apartment that is seemingly perfect fall into our lap when a friend of mine from work let us know that she and her fiancee had just bought a house and had to give up their apartment that they adored. Fortunately for them (and unfortunately for us), they closed on the house a lot quicker than they had originally expected which puts us in a place to have to make a decision very quickly. Each time we've made plans to see the apartment, the weather has made us their bitch, as well!
On top of this, the fact that our lease is up in June kinda puts a damper on the whole plan... Sure, there are other apartments in and around Hartford, but I've really been falling in love with everything I've been hearing about this one...
Today I just really felt the weight of how important our next location really is. Everything I've hoped for up here in Connecticut just hasn't quite panned out. I've tried a lot, and things work to a certain extent, but nothing has been great or turned out better than planned or been a nice surprise. Nothing so far.
|15 Mins. of chipping work.|
I've been saying that moving close to the city is my last hope here - to find somewhere I can actually fit in, make new friends and call "home," and if that were to fall through, I don't know where it would leave me, but I saw glimpses of it today, and it wasn't pleasant.
After taking that all in and a nice hot shower, I decided to focus on the only true good thing that I do love about Connecticut-- and that is cooking dinner for Dan, eating dinner with Dan and laying around and watching my stupid shows at night with Dan.
I can escape and be creative in the kitchen and I've always loved cooking. I also love to make people happy, so serving food to anyone at all I really enjoy. I go all out--for instance: tonight it was chili, so I had all of the fixin's laid out to choose from. Red onion finely chopped, shredded cheese, sour cream, etc. I use the best ingredients and also made salads and cornbread to accompany the main course. This was all just for Dan and I to enjoy.
And the night cap? Making fun of TV together. I mean, we obviously enjoy the shows we settle in to watch, but there's just so much to laugh about when it's just the two of us, and thank christ for that.
So... here's to keeping in mind why I'm here, and the only reason I'm here... And here's to hoping that I soon have other reasons to be here...